Late night thoughts....

So many nights I sit here and think "I should write on my blog" and then.... I get busy and forget about it. Until the next night when it starts all over again! So tonight, I'm not going to forget and actually write.
What prompted me tonight to really do this, was André. I think of him all the time and I really wonder when the time will come that I don't have to be so sad about it. While it doesn't bring me to tears every time anymore - I still can't listen to almost every 3rd song on the radio without it reminding me of him and more often than not, bringing me to tears. What is it about those songs and why are they so powerful?! There's one in particular that comes on that makes me laugh and cry at the same time - and it comes on at least once a week! It's not a new song either - from the 90's. He listened to some really "gay" music - and I don't mean happy! It makes me laugh - awesome - now if only it would stop making me cry too! I really believe that in getting these thoughts and feelings out in the open helps me to heal so putting my thoughts on André here tonight, I'm hoping will help me sleep better. I tend to dream about that night often and if I get this out - perhaps I won't tonight.
Simon I'm thinking is going to be quite musical! He loves music and will stop what he's doing at the slightest hint of a song on the tv, and either stare, dance or if he's heard it a few times, sing. I really hoped that he wouldn't just share André's birthday - and that perhaps he would inherit something from his uncle through the gene pool. Maybe he got that musical gene that André had, at least the talent part anyway. Hopefully André's taste in music doesn't come with it! I also want him to be athletic and to enjoy being active, oh and don't forget to be intelligent and have school work be easy for him. Is this too tall an order?! If so.... then keep singing Simon! You can work on the rest of it - but musical talent is either a have or have not kind of thing. Let's hope it's a "have" just like his Uncle!