Hi ho...hi ho....it's off to work I go!

Well, it's official. I'm off maternity leave and back to work. Actually - I've been back for a week now and I've never been so exhausted! I think having Simon was easier!! I'm teaching Grade 6 again - after 11 years - a fish out of water, and I think the fish probably fared better than me this week! I'm sure I'll get back into the grove eventually.....I just don't like this feeling of being so lost! I don't even think I was this lost my first year! Thank goodness I have such a good staff of friends who are willing to help as much as they can! I loved working there before - it's so important to work in a place of friends - so I'm glad to be back there (despite the fact that I'm not exactly glad to be back to work). I have the better of the two Grade 6 classes (in my opinion) so that's a bonus as well. BUT...I miss Simon, I miss being at home, I miss the freedom to do things when I want to do them.
I had a rough day on Friday - Simon repeated my brother's name when we were snuggling and that set me off for the rest of the night. Not sure if it was the combination of that and being so tired but I haven't cried that hard over him in a long time. I suppose everyone is entitled to those kinds of days. I missed hearing his jokes and words of encouragement as I was getting ready to go back to work. I missed being able to stop off at his house for a quick beer after that first day - to de-stress and laugh. Pure and simple...I miss him!
I thought being back to work and on a routine would help in the weight loss endeavor. Too much food at that school! grrr! Of course I could say no! I'm going to have to develop some will power if this is going to work! Maybe once I'm a little more used to this 'work' thing I'll be able to get back on my treadmill! I was just soooo tired this past week! I hope I start feeling more relaxed and a little less exhausted this week.