The impact of a blog

Reading a post from my friend Deena's blog about a friend of hers really hit me today. She had a pre-term baby, and due to other complications he died 5 days later. She describes everything so well, not only the events of her life but the emotion and the thoughts behind it all. It took me back to when Simon was in NICU and how much I could identify with some of her thoughts and emotions. From the stress and emotional rollercoaster that is the NICU to the nurses ("Newman") made me laugh and sigh. It reminded me of how close we came to losing Simon and possibly myself - and all the baggage that went with that. It reminded me of the day I found out I miscarried my baby, and the void that still holds for me. It reminded me of the grief I still feel every day over the loss of my brother and how raw that event still is for me - even though it's almost 3 years. It's so late, but I want to go into Simon's room and snuggle him so close. Even though he swore at me today (apparently "cheese is f@#k"! hahaha!) it made me laugh - he makes me laugh every day. Will I ever have another child - I don't know. Even if I don't, I have the cutest little miracle ever. He was born on that day for a reason - he was meant to survive. I sat down for a few minutes to check on the happenings of a friend and found some wisdom, strength and inspiration from a woman and her family who've gone through the most devestating loss of their lives. Not what I expected for a Wednesday night. Thanks for your post Deena - once again your big heart and wonderful words for a friend amaze and inspire!