Father's Day

Happy Father's Day! (yesterday!)
I think my dad had a good day - golfing in the rain. I'm sure he was just happy to spend it with his grandsons. My husband didn't get to spend the entire day with his son - but if he wouldn't have hurt his hand he would have been working anyway. I wish my brother could have joined us at the lake. It felt (to me anyway) like something was missing (besides my husband) - but I guess I feel like that almost every day.
It's getting better. My husband and I have a half decent relationship right now. It's been tough for the past 9 months. I haven't even really felt like spending a lot of time together. I've felt incredibly guilty for it - but I've just really wanted to be by myself - grieve by myself. I can feel a change in the air - I want life to get back to normal (or as much as it can with a 1 yr old around). We really just have to put more of an effort into it - maybe it's just been too easy to hide out by myself cuz that's what I know. I was single for a long time and when things were hard or I was hurting - then withdrawl was the way I would deal. To think, to escape, to cry and have no one the wiser! It's too hard when you have a husband and a baby and I have to accept the fact that they are here and they will help any way they can. More of an effort!
I would love to know how to get my 1 yr old to eat! Meal time is such a chore! He doesn't eat solid food the way a 1 yr old should - but he doesn't want to eat baby food! How do I get him to eat? He will eat toast, yogurt, some fruit (strawberry slices and mango bits), but other than that.....he won't eat. Turns his head to the spoon, and doesn't want to feed himself.....I'm so frustrated! He can't afford to lose weight! He can't afford not to eat! Patience..patience...patience!