Wed. May 27/09

I've broken the 10lb marker! It's taken some time. I suppose that's the "good" way to lose weight - but when you've got so much to lose you want it to go faster! It's been an alright week in that department. I'm not going to say great because I wasn't keeping track the way that I should, and I didn't do my Wii exercise program the way I should have this week. Not to say I didn't exercise - I walked, stepped on the Wii fit, boxed on the Wii Fit, and did all sorts of other things. However, the program "My Fitness Coach" is a real 'sweat it out' kind of work out which is exactly what I need to be doing. I should be able to go out with friends and have those beers, and once in a while eat those 'chicken fingers'. BUT, then I have to work it off which I didn't do quite like I should have this week. I lost - but I could have lost more. I'm aiming for 2lbs a week and I lost 1.4 - so this week I need to step up my game a little!
I joined a website that goes with the book I'm reading about sibling grief a while ago. You can leave tributes to your lost sibling, and memorials, and messages on the message board. All designed to give you a place to seek help and talk about what you've been through - where there are other people who've been through what you have in losing a sibling. It's a good website - and that's what I'm all about these days. I spend a lot of time on the computer so if there's a website that will help - I'm all over it! There's a girl on the website who lost her brother not too long ago in a car accident, much like I have. They almost have the same birthday (1 day apart), and there are many other similarities between our brothers - so we have discovered. We've been messaging back and forth on the website - and I'm finding that in helping her and giving her ideas as to what I've been doing in the past 8 months to get through this - it's been helping me. I'm not alone in this. Even my sister, who one would think is going through the exact same thing, isn't. Everyone grieves differently and I find it hard to talk to my sister sometimes because she's maybe not feeling the same things, or at the same place, or doesn't want to talk about it. So out of respect for her, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. But I find with this website I can get it all out, and people will either read it or they won't - respond to it, or they won't. I don't have to worry about their feelings or if they want to listen to me or not. Sometimes I just think people don't want to listen to it - which is hard for me cuz it helps to talk about it and get it out. Hence the long posts on here! hahaha!
My mommy moments: my son is so lovey these days! I get so many kisses - I love it! He finds me hilarious - which I'm also loving too! We can giggle all day! I'm so going to miss this when I go back to work! I wish he'd eat more solids. He will eat the jarred baby food or toddler food, but he won't eat what we're eating. Toast. He'll eat toast. I put all kids of mushed up food on his tray and he just ignores it waiting for the jar to come out. Turkey!! How do I get him to eat more grown up food! Patience....patience.....patience!